#went to see Idina last night #spent the rest of the time since then an emotional wreck #on the inside #I don't show my feelings #IT WAS ALL TOO MUCH #I JUST LOVE HER TOO MUCH #and she smiled at me twice and it was all so wonderful #and everything was perfect #I will now go back to my corner and wait for her to come back over here in another 3 years or however long it was between this time and last